Lately, I was ignoring His call to study His word, to know His greatness, to dwell in His presence because I am so preoccupied with the things of this world. I am so busy with my everyday life including my pregnancy. Which, all I wanted to do was just sleep and lie down. During my not-so-productive time I spent all my time browsing into my social media accounts. And, it does take all of my time.
As a first time mother, I am so stressed on how I can potty train my daughter for us to save on diapers. At first, I had to be angry and had to be frustrated when she would pee everywhere. I was so hard on my daughter I forgot that she was just 18 months old then.
I am on my 12th week of my pregnancy, and oh no! my belly is as if I am no my 6th month already. And some are like, oh! your tummy is so big! Is that normal? Apparently, I kept on explaining to them that I am bloated. Oh well! I don’t care! I am pregnant and I don’t care how big my tummy is. So to those who will approach me again, this time I will just smile and say to them, “okay you be pregnant and have those all day nausea and vomiting”.
Yes! You read it right! I am pregnant! Finally, our prayers were answered. I thank my prayer warriors who prayed with us. I remember very clearly my prayer request to have a little boy, however, if this will be girl we will still be very happy, another little Eliane!
A year had passed when I literally stopped writing. I was in an emotional roller coaster ride as I was coping with my second miscarriage. All I want was just to eat, cook and bake. I stopped thinking about my goals and did not do anything, and let the days passed. But hey! I definitely felt better being a mom, and a wife. I felt I was stressing myself about everything I forgot I needed to breathe, hence, the reason I stopped. I was and am looking deep within my heart what I really wanted.